“Are you following MY directions?” This is a question that I ask my three children fairly regularly along with “What did MOMMY say?” Many times they respond and many times they do not and just continue to do whatever their little hearts and minds are directing them to do. They ignore me sometimes, develop sudden amnesia, continue to keep kicking their feet, talking with their mouths full, singing at the dinner table, poking one another or just being “themselves”; three very uniquely different children ages 12, 5.5 (soon to be 6 in 4 days) and 4 years old.
Don’t get me wrong, like every mother I LOVE my children and think that they are GREAT! But, I have to be honest, they do not always follow my directions the first time given. Sometimes, they do not follow when my husband chimes in with “Did you hear what MOMMY just said?”
I have just started the On-Line Bible Study with Proverby 31 Ministries http://proverbs31.org/online-bible-studies/ where we are reading the book What Happens When Women Say Yes To God by Lysa TerKeurst. I have had a few things become amazingly clear to me in just three short days of participation. I am an AVERAGE listener. I do not mean listening to my staff, co-workers, family and friends (though I may be average in that realm as well) but an Average listener to God. In fact, average might even be generous.
Like many Christians I pray, read the Bible, go to church, volunteer in childrens ministry, and overall try and be a good person, wife, and mother. Until today I said that “I know God!” Lysa talks about in her book that “We have become so familiar with God yet so unaware of him.” WOW! THAT”S ME! She also says on page 17 of the paperback book “How it must disappoint HIM when we don’t hear or don’t listen to HIM.” How many times had God said to me “Darcey are you following MY directions?” “Darcey did you hear what I said?” I quickly realized that I am not much different than my children with the listening skills; especially when I want to just keep doing what I am doing how I want to do it! (just like my children). And, to be 100% honest, sometimes I hear GOD loud and clear and I am slow to respond if at all. I have SO easily become trapped in the routine of family, kids, work, PTO, track practice, swim lessons, Tae Kwon Do lessons, family vacations etc. I cannot listen to follow the directions of God if I am not listening closely to/for HIS instructions.
I can never thank God enough for HIS grace and mercy which is new every morning. As I begin to actively pursue God in a better (more dedicated) way my prayer is that I can not only hear his voice but be better than an average listener and follow HIS directions.